today was practically the 1st official IVP training for me.
but it was kinda slack today.
only a hand full of ppl showed up.
well.at least my team mate ulrick was there.
but his knee injury was aggrevated again.
due to some inflammed ligament.
ouch.
seriously wonder how he's gonna do for ivp.
*sigh
i realised today tt i have a bunch of 'friends'
or whatever they like to call themselves.
i was just thinking abt it.
its like you all seem to nice to me to my face.
but when u all talk to me over the phone.
its obvious tt you dont treat me as a friend.
for your info i do.
and only when you're in need then u call me?
wtf is this man.
even if i was around.
i wouldnt bother thinking of lending you the cash man.
so just fuck off.
you're not worth is too.
i dont know y but i've been doing alot of self-realization
these few days.
guess i dont want my life to be a lie.
i dont want 'friends'
i want real, true and honest friends.
ppl who can tell me to my face what they do not like abt me,
and are wiliing to settle it with me.
come on man.
dont go on talking behind my back and all tt crap.
you're not tt good.
im not tt good either,
but im telling y'all openly tt im not happy.
not its your turn.
well.
ivp's gonna be on the 26th and 27th of feb.
tt means only abt 3 weeks of training.
im so dead.
my stamina's like shit.
guess its abt time i go back to my old club to train somemore.
i really need the training.
if not im wondering how im gonna do for the competition.
i really hope tt im gonna go there and get killed.
but to KILL.
worried worried.
anyways i was at sentosa on sat night all the way to sunday morning.
tt place is damn nice at night man.
was like just chilling with my mates on the beach.
watch them have friendly fights.
damn fun!
then took a cab all the way back from sentosa at about 2.
and slept after tt.
church was shitty.damn tired and all.
anyways met law and cheese after a millenium la.
haha.
they're still the same.
played pool for a while then went home already.
not in the mood to blog anymore.
my life's abit fucked.
im sorry.
i'll see you guys later.
-ter`
